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well, i think this has successfully been my longest blogging break since i started back in 2004. wow. amazing how life will just get away from you and how priorities shift. i mean, i’m still out and about and reading blogs, but after my media fast back in feb, i trimmed my reader down to a couple dozen blogs and most of the time, i just skim those…but i’m rambling. i need to get caught up to date quickly or i’ll never get this thing posted.
so, when i left off back in march [!], i was busy training for zane grey 50m. well, as life often does, it through a wrench in my plans. my grandfather on my father’s side passed away and the services ended up being on race weekend. i tried every way possible to make it to the start, but the timing just wasn’t going to allow it. i ended up heading to colorado for the services spent the weekend catching up with family and friends instead. just like with my mom’s father who passed away the previous year, it was amazing to hear the things that people were saying about him that we never knew. for example, his boss from lockheed [?] showed up and made a point of saying how my grandfather’s efforts with the company were one of the key reasons that they were successful. i, again, was coerced into saying something and i decided to illustrate his playful and loving nature. the photo pictured was taken out at my folks place in arizona. as we were getting ready to end the visit and head home, i caught my grandparents standing out on the back patio looking out at the desert. i snuck out with my camera and shot a couple dozen photos of them without their knowing. what surprised me, upon looking at the photos later that night, was not the that, after so many years, they still love holding each other, but that as i scrolled through each of the pictures, i could see that my grandfather was swinging his right arm. playfully enjoying the moment. classic grandpa.
as a result, zane grey was a bust. i wanted to wallow in missing my A race for the year, but, with the huge base that i’d built, i was dead set against letting it go to waste. a friend from the trail club suggested the pct50 down in san diego instead and offered to contact the rd to try to get me into the race. she was successful and i toed the line for my second 50mi trail race on may 9th. for zane grey, i had really hoped to rock the course and had all sorts of expectations built up for the event. for pct50, i was somewhat emotionally spent and just really wanted to finish, enjoy the day and focus on other life’s pressing matters [more on that later]. i hadn’t looked at the course profile, hadn’t run a single training run on the course and pretty much just came in blind. and that worked. i had a fabulous race. i smiled the entire way through it, soaked up the experience and surprised myself with a fairly decent time. i crossed the finish in 9:15 and felt wonderful. well, wonderful except for my knee. i took a little digger around mile 12, but it didn’t seem to affect my running, so i finished the race.
the following day, my knee was in excruciating pain and it was difficult to walk. i passed it off as just over-use and muscle fatigue and continued life as normal. although, life was becoming less and less normal at that point. after renting back our place from the buyers, our lease was coming to a close and the weekend after pct50, we packed up our home of twelve years and put it all in storage. we had been looking in earnest for a place to buy, but the real estate market in so. cal has been nuts. EVERYTHING in our price range was a short sale. and those ridiculous types of sales can take anywhere from three to six months to process. we were making offer after offer, but getting nowhere.
so, with our bags packed, we became homeless. we moved in with smsmh’s family up in coarsegold and i began the task of commuting to southern california every other week. i did a great deal of couch surfing for the end of may and the entire month of june. it was a novelty at first, but it got real old, real fast. i always felt like i was imposing [which, let's face it, i was] and it was really hard to actually relax. even when back with smsmh and tc, it was still hard to relax since we weren’t in our own ‘space’. don’t get me wrong, i LOVED the community and spending time with family and friends, but there comes a time when you just want to be able to go to the bathroom at 3am and not have to worry about surprising the in-laws as you walk neked though the house.
all the while, i was trying to get in running and cycling miles, but the knee that had acted up after pct50 just wouldn’t cooperate. i would rest it while up in coarsegold [by cycling instead of running - which didn't seem to bother it] and then attempt to run on it again when i was in so. cal. the final straw came at the first peter’s canyon trail race of the summer. i showed up excited to put in a good showing and optimistically paid for all three races. i had already run quite a few [mildly painful] miles that week and knew that i was racing on tired legs, but went out HARD anyway. at about the 3mi mark, the knee screamed and i knew it was going to hurt when i finished. honestly, though, i thought it was just going to be some more muscle discomfort and would recover after a day or two.
well, here it is, the middle of august, over two months later and all i have to show is a couple of very painful exploratory runs. i’ve essentially been off my feet since that race. i know, i know, i should go have it looked at and if, after the next couple of easy runs i try, it still hurts, i’ll do just that. but, the good news is that the injury comes at a time where i need to be focusing on other things. while i was in the uk at the end of june for business, we put an offer on a house [sight unseen - we were just so DONE with looking, it looked good online and we just wanted a house] that just happened to be a standard sale. we lost the house to a full cash offer, but a couple weeks later, our agent called to tell us that the cash offer had walked and the house was ours if we wanted it. we had since had a chance to view the house and were very happy with the location, schools, yard and eager to enter escrow on the place. so, it looks like we’ll close escrow on the new place the middle of next month, begin our home improvements and then move in a week or two.
whew! that’s quite a bit of stuff! what else did i leave out? oh…yeah…family stuff. thunderclap had his third birthday and is getting HUGE. we had our well-child visit for his third year and he weighed in at 41lbs and 41 inches. he’s a huge kid! the latest thing is him shoving massive amounts of food into his mouth and saying, “look at my gaping maw, daddy!” where does he get these things? i’ll never know.
i’ll do my best to keep back at the posting, but it’ll mostly be kid stuff and home renovation for the next month or so until i get back on my feet. and then, WOAH, get ready! because i’ll be starting from square one again. oh joy.

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i know, i know, i owe the blogosphere a recap of my february media fast. march has only a day left and i don’t even have a draft for something that i did a month ago. well, honestly, i think about it often, but i enjoyed the media fast so much that i just ended up continuing it. the long and the short of it is that it is AWESOME. lots of great thoughts came along with the whole thing…but that’s for another post. today, i’m going to blog about the past weekend because i need to document some cool/funny running stuff and drop a tactical thunderclap bomb and then fade back into the ether.
i think i’ve mentioned that i’m pursing the idiotic dream of completing a 50mi race again. this is a monkey that i have to get off my back and once it’s gone, i doubt i’ll revisit the distance as a race. but, that, too, is a thought process best saved for another post. the short story is that i’m putting in lots of miles these days and lots of long back-to-back miles. the past several weekends have been an exercise in attempting to hit 60+ miles over the course of three days. with several long runs in excess of 30 miles, i’m feeling pretty well prepared for the race next month.
this past saturday i scoped out a huge loop to run from home. the route would encompass the aliso/wood canyons park, laguna coast wilderness, el moro and crystal cove state park, the nix center and the james dilley preserve. running in a clockwise direction [and in the order of the parks listed], i headed out before dawn on saturday. the run went off better than expected for the first 31 miles. i ran all the hills hard, kept moving with the exception of a couple of water stops and exercised wisdom with my fuel and fluid intake. everything was going perfectly to plan until mile 31.
after leaving the james dilley preserve, i have to sneak onto some private land for the remaining two miles back to the house. for years, i’ve used an old jeep trail to run through the land. the trail starts right at the edge of james dilley and the access to the trail is squished between a lake and a large body of seasonal water. an old road used to run between the two and when the road was removed to the other side of the seasonal pond, the road was dug up and a long trench was left behind. i would run up the trench from james dilley, hop up the berm at the end of the trench and the gate to the jeep trail was right there. easy peasy.
it has been a year or more since i’ve been through this route.
as i rolled through the james dilley preserve, i popped out through the brush above the trench and was surprised to see it completely filled with water. i ran around the south end of it to the berm that paralleled it and began following a faint animal trail toward where i knew the gate would be. i figured at worst i’d do some bushwhacking for a couple hundred yards, but i was confident that the berm would connect up with the section of land that the gate was on.
it took only a few seconds of running along the animal trail before it devolved into heavy brush. i began climbing through the heavy branches and brush, making my way toward the gate. the brush continued to get more dense and before long i was doing chineese contortion moves to get through the thicker sections and climbing thicker branches to get over impassable areas. i found it funny that just prior to this change in activity, i was becoming physically and mentally tired. i could smell the stables and i was beginning to let fatigue set in. now that i was doing something other than running, i had plenty of mental focus and energy.
eventually, i reached an area where i could see the gate ahead. the only problem, though, was that the berm ended about 30’ shy of the gate. blocking my path to the gate, and on both sides of the berm were wide pools of water. i began to realize that the trenches had been constructed to collect overflow from barbaras lake and most likely to provide wetlands for migratory birds. i stood at the end of the berm and took stock of my options. i could bushwhack my way back, but the only route i’d have back home included about four miles of detour up laguna canyon. the other option was to wade through the standing water to the other side. that gate was so close, yet so far.
the water didn’t smell stagnant and didn’t have any funky growth on it, so i figured i’d give wading a try. with two steps i was up to my waist. by the third step i would have been in up to my chest. i backed up and grabbed a construction stake to feel the depth as i moved around the berm trying to find a more shallow crossing. after several minutes of failed attempts, i realized i was either going to have to swim or run the extra distance.
i was right, and after three steps i was up to my chest. i held my bottle high and waded in up to my chin and pushed off. my feet found no purchase, so i dog-paddled and one handed stroked my way across to the other bank. after climbing up, i took quick stock and made sure i didn’t pick up any unwanted visitors during the swim. i ran through the open gate and into the fields beyond. the shoes squished a bit, but quickly drained and the warming air had my skin and clothes comfortable after a couple of minutes.
what stuck with me, though, was how fresh my legs now felt. the cold water on the muscles had rejuvenated my legs and the change of activity had kick-started my mind. the remaining two mile run back to the house was easy and i just kept cracking up thinking about having to do a ‘river crossing’ in southern california; that was a first. the renewed legs, though, made me think forward to my race and the handful of stream crossings that are on the course. i think on race day, i’ll make a point of stopping for a couple of seconds to do a quick submerge when i come across them. i’m hoping that the results will be similar.
well, i’ve babbled long enough so the narc story about thunderclap will have to wait for another day. maybe next month, eh?
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when smsmh asked me what i wanted for my birthday this year, i easily responded with a desire to head out to death valley for some winter running. january through march are really the prime months to run out in death valley and each year i try to head out there and plan something epic. last year, i was able to pull off a great run through titus along with some running in the dunes and that experience was one of the most surreal experiences i’ve had. i was hoping that i could repeat, if not better it, this year.
the rough plans for the weekend were to run a long, partially un-marked route through some remote sections of the park on the first day, and then try to summit one of the peaks on the second day. i posted the proposed trip on the club website, but received no takers other than repete, who had previously agreed to join me.
so, birthday weekend came and with firmed routes and excited resolve, repete and i met up to get out of so cal and head into the wild california desert. our enthusiasm was quickly squashed as we landed in the middle of three-day-weekend-escape-so-cal traffic. the drive out of civilization normally takes about an hour and from there it’s a quick two to three hours of desert driving to hit death valley. this time, though, we sat in crawling, bumper-to-bumper for three hours before we landed on the relatively traffic free 395. the nice thing about the gridlock, though, was that it would just serve to increase the sense of remoteness once we started our run.
by 10pm, we arrived in furnace creek in death valley. exhausted from the driving, and encouraged by the warm temperatures, we just put our mats and bags down on the ground and opted to forgo a tent for the night. morning came quick and after a yummy breakfast of eggs and broccoli, we rolled over to the ranger station to pick up topo maps of our route and talk with the rangers about what we planned to do.
the proposed route was a southwesterly jeep trail through cottonwood canyon for about sixish miles, followed by a tighter, vegetation choked version of the same canyon for another sixish miles with little to no trail. cottonwood, at that point, would top out into a higher elevation basin with no trail or markings for a 10ish mile traverse over to deadhorse/marble canyon. deadhorse would drop into marble for an eightish mile run back to the start point. the canyons would be fairly straight-forward to navigate, but the basin, saddle and traverse into deadhorse were completely unmarked and required us to use terrain and compass navigation to find the correct route. all told, the route would be somewhere between 26-32 miles [based on documents provided by rangers].
equipped with maps and skeptical comments from brook, our ranger, we headed over the heavily washed-out 4×4 route into the mouth of cottonwood canyon. repete and i both packed about 120oz of water apiece [repete might have had quite a bit more, now that i think about it] and food for the trip. the weather was looking like it would stay clear and sunny and in the low to mid 60’s. and, off we went. within the first mile we caught and passed the only people we’d see until the end of marble canyon; back packers with heavily laden packs. the ranger had said that the route was typically done as a two or three day trip. i think that’s why we got strange looks when we said we’d be doing it in a day.
the canyon quickly tightened up and was soon only a mere 20-30’ across at it’s base with towering walls of sandstone, marble and sediment blocking out large portions of the sky. the run was comfortable along the jeep trail with a low grade elevation gain, easily marked route and mild footing. without much excitement or ordeal, we reached the end of the jeep track and took a short break to fuel up and check the map for what lay ahead. the ranger had mentioned that at this point, the canyon base would narrow and the route would become choked with vegetation. from what we could see at that point, it looked like there were some scattered trees ahead, but nothing of significance. the cottonwood spring must have been quite active at the canyon summit, because there was plenty of water flowing in the creek.
after double checking the map, we headed out on what looked like a faint trail. within 100 yards, though, we realized that the ranger was right and that the route was, indeed, heavily vegetated. the running through this section was tough and most of the time we were reduced to a shuffle, power-hiking or even the occasional heavy bushwhacking. we crossed back and forth across the canyon, following what looked like a trail, constantly moving up the canyon, making slow progress. every so often, the canyon would open up and we’d be able to run normally again, but within a mile or so, it would tighten again and we’d be back to more bushwhacking.
about half way through this section, we hit a portion of the canyon that widened into a sandy wash with a depression where the spring was flowing. along the banks, there was what looked like an established trail. as we ran along following this trail, i noticed that someone, actually, something, had recently been on the trail as well. with rain a few days before our trip, fresh tracks were easy to spot. the dry soil would be moved aside to expose the moisture just below the surface. fresh tracks would still show moisture, but after half a day or so, the track would be dry. the tracks following this trail were very distinct and occasionally showed moisture. they were fresh. i bent to look closer at them and realized that they were indeed cat tracks. no claw, four main toes with the m shaped pad. they were big for a bobcat, but small for a mountain lion. it was hard to gauge just what made them, but i was leaning to mountain lion and repete toward bobcat. as we ran along, it became clear that there were two sets of prints. one large set and a smaller set. mother and cub. we followed this obvious set of tracks for close to four miles. we would lose the tracks as we bushwhacked, but always regain them again once we hit the ‘trail’ in the canyon. it was good to see that we took the path of less resistance, just as the cats did.
as we neared the top of the canyon, we came across even more evidence that the tracks were recent. there was scat on the trail and it still had a damp mucous on it. the cats couldn’t have been through the area more than a couple of hours before us. i was comforted knowing that the prints were smaller than my fist, so if it was a mountain lion, it was on the smaller side and probably not something that would take a chance with two humans. we started a conversation about the similarities between domestic cats and wild cats, wondering if wild cats had a tendency to scrape or cover their scat like domestic cats do. no sooner had the question been posed and we spotted more scat at the summit of the canyon, complete with scrape marks. from this point, the tracks disappeared and i think the rocky summit of the canyon may have actually been the home for the pair. in hindsight, i do think that the tracks were bobcat, simply because the cat evidence we found later during the run had to have been made by some big cats, and this pair were no where large enough to take down a horse, bighorn sheep or deer.
the top of cottonwood signaled the beginning of our ‘unmarked’ section of the route. our course had us transitioning to the north and running up the basin along the base of the north-running ridge until we hit a low saddle/pass. the change in scenery was very welcome at this point. the basin was nearly a mile across and several miles long. it was wide open, remote and desolate. the running was very different from what we had been doing up to this point. we were now running wild, across the basin, through desert scrub. there was lots of weaving through the brush and adjusting the route to keep heading toward what we thought was the pass. every plant we came across out there was tough, though. everything scratched. everything had a ‘don’t eat me!’ defense or quality to it. even the plants that looked soft would tear up our shins. it was what you would expect of the desert. harsh.
as we ran through the basin we would stop occasionally to take a reading on where we were. we were quite confident that we’d mapped the pass correctly and knew where it was on the map, but deciphering that based on the terrain that we were seeing took some focus. initially, we thought our pass was the second of two low points in the ridge, but after running several miles through the basin, we determined that it was actually the closer of the two. this brought me great joy, as the pass never seemed to get closer for all the running we were doing. after several hours of running through a canyon without being able to see your goal, having your destination floating ahead of you, taunting you, was a challenging change. eventually we reached the wash that lead up to the pass that we wanted. as we went up the wash, we lost sight of our terrain markers on the ridge and it was a reminder to pay attention to how far we were drifting to one side or the other.
without too much effort, we gained the saddle, if not a little bit high on the north side. from where we summitted, we could look down on the saddle itself and see a small cairn. helpful, sure, but not visible until you were actually on top of it. i had hoped that we’d spot cairns along the way, but without any place to build them up, they would have just been lost in the scrub. repete added a couple rocks to the saddle cairn and we began to plan our traverse and drop into deadhorse canyon. we had been warned not to follow the wash from the saddle too far as it would naturally lead you to an impassible dry fall. our traverse called for following the wash for roughly over a mile and then doubling back to the north around a series of low hills on the ridgeline above deadhorse.
the running from this point was no longer work. sure we were still weaving through the scrub, but it was finally downhill and it was nice to let gravity help with our progress. dropping down into the wash, it was easy to see how following it always downward would be an easy mistake to make. we kept close tabs on the terrain features to our north and when we finally saw the series of small hilltops, we doubled back. the map had a small saddle that should have taken us to the top of deadhorse, and as we ran up to where we thought it was, we were happy to see what looked like a footpath worn into the side of the canyon. rather than zig-zag our way down the side, though, we opted to take the steep route and bombed down into the canyon like kids just released to summer vacation. we had successfully made the traverse and the joy was palpable. it felt so good to know that we could turn off the navigation focus and just run down the canyon.
shortly after dropping into deadhorse, we began to spot definite signs of cat activity. we came across the remains of several kills as we ran along the spring: bighorn sheep spine and ribs, deer leg and even a complete deer skeleton. deadhorse sported some more of the bushwhacking that we did in cottonwood, but it was much easier and the sections were significantly shorter. after a few miles, we finally exited deadhorse and spilled into marble canyon. at this point, the sun was beginning to set and down in the tight canyon, the light began to fade. as if by instinct, as the canyon narrowed and the light began to fail, both repete and i began to pick up the pace. we flew through the canyon at a very challenging, but fun pace. the canyon got tighter and more twisted and the walls soared overhead.
this section of the run was by far the most enjoyable. flying through the narrow canyon gave an increased sense of speed and the sharp twists and turns required significant focus on footing to pick a line through the rocks and sand that wouldn’t impact speed. we flew along for what felt like near an hour, but i know it wasn’t that long. we both ran along in silence, just soaking in the experience. with about six miles to go, though, i finally ran out of water. with the cooler temperatures, i had figured that just the 120oz would last me for 30ish miles. i had opted to leave an additional 32oz nalgene back at the car, thinking that i wouldn’t need it. running up cottonwood, though, i noticed that i was perspiring much more heavily than i had anticipated. i had begun slight rationing at the top of deadhorse, but satisfying my thirst ended up resulting in an empty water bladder well before the finish.
once i realized i was out of water, the joy of running fast through marble began to fade. i knew we only had a handful of miles left to go and that the route was easy to follow, but something kicked in and made me feel the severity of the moment. i was without water in death valley and miles from any source. that freaked me out a little bit and i began to grow anxious to get back to the vehicle. repete continued to enjoy this section of the run and flew, literally, the rest of the way through marble canyon.
with close to a mile left to go through marble canyon, the light finally faded enough that we needed to break out the headlamps. by the time we were birthed through the mouth of marble canyon, it was pitch black and the jeep trail connecting to the cottonwood jeep trail was actually quite difficult to follow. we finally met back up with the cottonwood canyon jeep trail and started heading north toward the vehicle. we lost the trail due to the highly washed out nature of the canyon floor. knowing that we had parked next to one of the walls made it easier to home in on where the vehicle was. as we got closer to where i thought we had parked, i pulled out my key fob and started mashing the unlock button every couple of minutes. eventually, the orange parking lights blinked on along with the dome light and like moths to a flame we made our final approach.
we were both pretty exhausted by the run, both physically and mentally. a good deal of our discussion as we drove to the wild rose campground for our second night, was how taxing that sort of run was compared to running a regular trail, or even a race. in both cases you have the luxury of putting your head down and just following where the trail leads. keeping the head on a swivel to keep alert of your location and scanning the surroundings for any wildlife takes quite a bit out of you, too. but, the bonus to running a route like that was the sense of immediacy that follows you. the need to constantly be on, constantly alive, constantly surviving. it was a brilliant change from the well traveled paths i am so accustomed to running.
the best part of the adventure, though, was the company. it’s rare that you come across a running partner that doesn’t need any managing or maintenance. having to support a weak link on a run like this would have been a huge drain on available energy. i can only imagine what calming someone’s mountain lion fears would have done to the experience. what a drain it would have been to have to listen to someone complaining about the bushwhacking or how painful the scrub was. repete managed all of that on his own and just ran what was set before us. along with the low maintenance, we were completely in synch as far as pace, effort and reaction to the environment. we seemed to speed up together, bonk together and show enthusiasm together.
for the weekend, i actually received two birthday presents. the first, from smsmh, was the freedom to head out to the desert for a full weekend. the second, was from repete for his company and perfect companionship. gifts don’t get any better than that.
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a lot of thought cycles have been devoted recently to thinking about what i want to do when i grow up. i guess it’s normal at this stage in life to start processing the whole, “what do i want my legacy to be?” do i want it to be about the work i’ve performed? do i want it to be about race palmarès? do i want it to be about how well i raised my son? and the thought hit me that once i’m gone, what does the past really matter? why do we dwell on those things or look to build up a collection of events, awards, items, etc? i think the more we look to the past, the less time we have to focus on what is still to come. so, i decided that i want to live a life where i’m excited for the many opportunities and adventures that lay ahead rather than dwelling on the failures, ‘what ifs’ and accomplishments of the past.
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one of the most noticeable things that has come of this media fast is how conversations have shifted. two items have caught my attention when talking with people. first, i’m out of the loop on media events. i find it humorous and rewarding when someone says, “hey, did you hear about this thing?”. i’m finding that the finite energy that i have is not being caught up in thinking, processing or regurgitating these stories, which, in all reality, have no bearing or value in my life. it is very freeing, knowing that i know nothing of the latest atrocity that the media wants you to dwell upon or latest crisis that you MUST worry over.
second, conversations have ceased to revolve around pop culture and television references. instead, the theme of most conversations has shifted to telling stories, sharing ideas and working on problems. this has given me the opportunity to get to know some of the people i spend a good deal of time with even better than before. i’m realizing just how valuable the time spent with those people is and what a waste it is to spend entire sessions talking about ‘pants on the ground’ or something equally inane.
the common ground now is life, how we experience it and how we share it. that, right there, is a good foundation for building on.
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